February 03, 2006
Well I'm starting to feel sorted. In the last couple of days I have sorted out my bank, car rego and other stuff. I am pleased to say the progress on rearranging my studio is almost complete. I feel that I have made a positive decision about finding work and that it is only to my advantage that if I choose to work part-time and it is as a Kitchen designer, swollow my pride and not put so much emphasis on my expectations. Enjoy the work for the period I do it. It means there has to be less focus on the what if's and that I could actually be even more organized if I worked set times, instead of fluffy, fly by the seat of my pants hours, then I can really get stuck into all my creative projects that are patiently waiting for me. It's exciting. Last night after much deliberation, a session of exercise and then a late night contemplation in my home journal I feel that the a heavy sleep has enabled me to sort all the ????? in my head. I can see a potential for an illustration here. Once I have purchased my home computer I shall endeavour to explore that side of my creativity. One of my projects that I plan is to one day write a children's book in conjunction with my Mum. My mother has through all my childhood done some of the most beautiful little illustrations, so talented. I always loved her home made cards with flowers, beetles and a very appealing fox. I shall photograph her work and then paste them in to my blog. It's due to the creativity of my parents, maternal grandmother (Nan nan) and Auntie Susi that has been a huge influence and grounding my creativity. I feel I'm finally on the journey I have been so afraid to start because, it was seen as daggy, uncool and "tres chic" design. I have been terribly influenced by my education in that post-modern, minimalist style that was so influential in the late eighties early nineties when I was doing my degree. So I have had to hide my crafty side, quietly doing little things on the side and never appreciating how my talents could be combined. I had this wonderful insightful friend at university, who mentioned once I should look at combining my talents but naturally I ignored him. We live and learn and I still think of this friend of mine and occasionally we do get in touch, I may just have to again to say I have finally come to terms with what he suggested 15 years ago. Wow. The photo is of Orion my star.